Tainted Eyes

Left Alone Not understood
Hurt in my heart
Hunger in my body
Dagger in my hand
Cool metal glistening in
Dull Light
Knife pinching my skin
Inbetween bones
Pain overbearing
Have to release it
Cut 1
line of blood
cut 2
stream of red
staining my skin
loosing track
blood pulling on the counter
gathering on the floor
seeing a bag
pulled tightly over twigs
covered in red paint
a skeleton...
a nothing...
a piercing scream
wide eyes
innocent like a fawns
tainted by a horrific sight
seeing a river of blood
falling into
a ocean of onyx

A Promise

bound by the mixing of blood
a droplet of red
in crystal white snow
fate decided by a promise
a promise I'll keep
even if shes dead
a promise
to be as thin as a
withering flower petal
to weigh next to
nothing at all
to be a
Wintergirl

Skinny Not Enough

100 is weak
pouches of fat yellowing my skin
stupid/ugly/stupid/bitch/stupid/fat/stupid/baby/stupid/loser/stupid/lost
The thought of eating scares me
standing in the mirror
90 not skinny
seeing a pus-filled whale
people laughing when fat jiggles
never happy
80 will want to be 70
10 will want to be 5
only happy at 0
0 pounds=0 existence